the most touching thing you will ever read...well not really i just needed a title

So, well, yeah. Hi.

I'm 余自敏. Eii Tze Min. Eii because my father's birth forms got messed up. You know, the fat girl with the frizzy thick mane that liked anime and went around spreading  The Game (you lose) and helped printed the Troll faces in the class. I doubt if a lot of people will still remember me anyway.

Puberty still sucks for me and my hormones are against me. I'm still fat all over with my sagging butt and "aeroplane" chest. Well, when compared to the other girls anyway. The somewhat exciting thing about having the pinafore as our school uniform is that you get to see the bossoms exaggerated but it's easily noticible if you lack the stiff peaks normally found on a blossoming girl my age.

Oh, and we wear the same blue pinafores as SMK students, so you get to see strips of black bras to the side every so or often. Talk about eye candy.

I've started getting serious on weight loss. Yeah, not too convincing since I'm sipping a Starbucks Frappucino as I type this. But really, if you don't cut yourself some slack every so and often you'll binge at the very sight of desserts. I've rose to 62 kg at about May but managed to work it off to 58kg. Well, that's my current weight anyway.

I'm ( a pretty short for my weight) 154cm. Oh and I've straightened my hair since you get checked for hair and nails and such every few weeks and straightening helped tame my mane a little.

When I got into KC High I joined the Drama Club. It really helped with my phobia of public speaking or even speaking up alone against the higher authorities. But by no means does that mean that it helped with my insecurity issues. A heck load of people have told me to have more confidence in myself but I really can't bring myself to.

I swear a lot more naturally now. Which isn't too good. I'd let out a "SHIT!" here and a "FUCK!" there and damn it's annoying. But the swearing usually has no devious meanings to it but I still wish I had a cleaner mouth and a better self-censoring system.

I'm also more open towards boys now. Yeah. Back in primary I confess that I was scared shitless of them. Because one little gesture could get you two stuck in some rumours and gossip and such and I was really afraid. So now I can tall normally to them and it's really a change I like. Well we're more open towards such and we don't really shun away the opposite sex and everyone can be friends normally. Well they are still rumours and gossip around but i find myself less scared of them now.

I took up piano and knitting too. My piano is around Grade 1.5 level, but this is nothing conpared to the piano diplomats in my class.

So yeah, that's about it on my personal update. :D